Life is beautiful!
Today is the 15th of December. I woke up with a horrible pain in my neck, ice rain splashing on the window and a certain feeling of sickness. I did not take too long until I realized that the last two days were unfortunately not a bad dream. I paid 1000 Euro to fly in winter from the sunny South of Spain to a place where I never wanted to be again. What has happened?
Two days ago we started a trip to Hungary to buy our new mobile home. This is the diary from the evening, when we arrived in Budapest:
If you do not expect anything, you cannot get disappointed. For me this is one of the most simple truth I have learned on my travels. Still, it is not always so easy, not to expect anything…
Today it is the 13th of December and we just arrived in Budapest. Five years ago we lived in Hungary’s capital for around half a year. And although the city has changed much, and mostly to the worse, we always feel at home when we come here.
However, this time it was a little bit though. The last days before we flew, we spent in a rented apartment at the Costa del Sol, in the south of Spain. We had a big balcony with view on the ocean, twenty degree and sunshine. Now I am sitting in front of gas heater in the middle of a never sleeping metropolitan. Outside it is -3 degree, from the aeroplane I could even see some snow and when I stand up and watch out of the widow, I can see a grey backyard.
As much as I love Budapest, I honestly would have never come back in winter. Specially not from the South of Spain. But tomorrow we want to watch our new car. I have a very good feeling. Every time I talked on the beaches of Spain with somebody of the big vanlife family about it, I felt more and more in love with it. It is an old Mercedes 207 with a big living box on the back. Finally we will have enough space for a shower, a little kitchen, a sitting place and a vanlife without continuously packing. I already have so many ideas. And here we are back at the beginning. Sometimes it is not so easy, not to have any expectations.
For sure I will tell you, how it was.
Yesterday we finally watched the car. After we slept in our apartment in Budapest we took a train from the Keleti station to the village, where our car was waiting for us. Already when we stopped and left the train I saw it standing next to the station. “Exactly like on the pictures”, I was thinking “just much more little.”
In fact I could not stand inside and instead of the 6 and a half meters length, this was what the owner had told us, the car had maybe 4 and a half meters. All together I would have been nearly the same space, that we have now in our beloved Volkswagen Transporter. So we decided not to buy. Easy decision.
The way to Zoé’s parents was a little bit more difficult. There was no train going anymore. In the end we had to take a bus. On the 2 hours drive over Hungary’s country roads and through forgotten villages I started to think: “How to turn shit to gold this time. What can be the good on this disaster.”
I did not regret to come. Why should I? I was thinking the car would be great and I always would go again for my dreams. Without any hesitation, without any doubt. But everybody who knows a little bit about playing poker understands how it feels when you go all in and you loose. Specially when you had a great hand and the game was going really good for you before. Then you sit at the table and it took a moment to realize that you are out, to realize what it means to go all in and what it means when the game is finally over.
But well, life is beautiful. How could I stay bad, next to my beautiful babies. Zoé was all morning trying to cheer me up. Sometimes it can be kind of a hard job. She gave me massage, made amazing vegan food and thought about the best pictures to put to this article. And Hugó? He is always happy. He wake me up with a smile, wants to play, to discover. He is untouched by all the unimportant shit around him. If we are in a bus, on an airport or in a villa on a paradise beach. He is happy to be. And well, like always, after a while I realize, that nothing was too dramatic. The pain in the neck has slowly gone, the ice rain stopped and somewhere our new mobile home is waiting for us. We just have to find it.
Lots of love